Ame Soeur

We walk hand in hand though we are miles apart

Our thoughts seem to be intertwined even though we are not together

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My mind never falters, helplessly it’s always with you

My thoughts have their own way, never are they bound to me

My heart yearns like it has never yearned before

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As we walk hand in hand…

Sometimes we fail to see the horizon

The darkness seems suffocating and the leaves beneath our feet feel like thorns

But then the warmth of our feelings and the firmness of our intertwined hands…

It takes away the pain, hopelessness and fear and drenches us with light

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Sometimes the pain is physical, a squeezing of the heart

Sometimes the pain is sweet, a lightness of the heart

But always a feeling of missing, an absent longing heart

Beyond the torrent of rain

You see.
Nowadays it always feels like its raining.
I look out the window. To the world outside.
I don't see the trees or the houses.
What I see are just the raindrops.

Sometimes I try to look beyond the rain.
At the world afar.
But somehow the rain blurs my vision.
It doesn't let me see. I feel blinded.

Dread fills me sometimes. It brings on doubt.
I try to let it out.
Let it not consume me.
But it clouds my judgement and dashes my hope.
It clouds my mind, my thoughts, my mood

But that's only on some days.

Other days I smile.
I keep hope. I let it guide me.
I keep it close. I hold on it tight.
Its very evasive. Hope.
Sometimes when I am not careful it slips away
But mostly its with me. My companion.
I let it draw me out to see the sun in the horizon
And see to the future.